October 27, 1999

...i keep asking mself...

found a fancy restaurant specializing in undomesticated animal meat(tho these

days, it seems they mostly raise formerly wild animals, too- rather than

actually hunt them. is this better or worse, i ask myself?)

-name of 'café viena'. it had some fancy pastries including sacher torte,

too,

but no linzer torte...well, couldn't find it in salzburg, what was i to

expect...seems as if outside of linz, th mythical dessert is to be found only

in a couple places in nyc...

spent th last two days struggling w/ archaically slow, bottlenecked servers @

universidad complutense- have bn commuting into town via la universidad every

morning w/ my cousin miguel sobrino blanco from th madrid bedroom community

suburb of alcobendas. he's something of a semiotician, teaching communication

theory & seeking to develop methodology for more correctly reading &

analysing

advertising practices scarcely recognised as such- such as point-of-sale

product blurbs, store window displays...also, th burgeoning internet, of

course...

so i'm back to watching th clock as i write, after looking over my 'camino d

santiago' route guide last night in an attempt to check my memory for detail

&

start organising some kind of narrative about those most intense six days...

this is th beginning of th road back. it was a difficult decision, fueled by

possibly untrue hearsay, but i've ended up not going to galicia, not visiting

la guardia, not checking on th old family house @ all...th rumor was that my

uncles may have already found a buyer & th house is gone, gone, gone...it

felt

difficult to show up in town after that, uncomfortable to look for a place to

stay & go over th same ol' plans & illusions i've bn talking up for th last

four, five years in response from th same ol' questions on th part of

relatives

& acquaintances of every stripe...i'm especially sorry not to have a chance

to

see & talk to josé fandiño, who runs th only gym in th village & has bn

unstintingly generous in welcoming me to its facilities whenever i've bn in

town...or w/ leo álvarez sousa, who has gone from trekking, oasis to oasis,

in

his land rover down to senegal or east into algeria, to travelling as a

caritas

volunteer to kosovo & is now in th process of producing a cd-rom w/ some of

his

photographs & other documents to help w/ fund-raising efforts...or w/ my

cousin

dr. kiko sobrino, who three years ago told me he had taken a risk w/ some of

his savings to help produce a friend's film...!

i'll have to make do w/ a couple of phone calls for now, & hope my plans for

next year work out...as it is, i'm on th way back to barcelona, to paris or

pisa on th way to weimar, to wolfenbuettel &/or hamburg on th way to

amsterdam,

& nyc on th way to puerto rico...it sure is th long way home from where i'm

trying to catch my breath right now...

love to all,

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