November 3, 1999

i'm gonna find mself a girl/who can show me what laughter means

&we'll fill in th missing colors/in each other's paint-by-number

dreams...

give me/a kiss to build a dream on/&my imagination/will make that moment

live...

back in barcino, in a tiny room like th one before, but @ hostal condal,

i

have central heating & a fridge to put my yogurt & pineapple juice

in...had

a

couple of low days roundabout halllowe'en- wanted to party but was

exhausted

from th train trip- even w/ th extra hour from going off daylight savings

time!- also...letting go of th tension of th week in miguel's

household...gloria is a somewhat loud, somewhat shrill madrileña, on th

edge

(or over it!) of feeling overwhelmed all th time- working on her doctoral

thesis, teaching a couple of classes, raising two kids...miguel must have

had

some scare, gloria was watching what he ate, issuing warnings about

cholesterol- he's also stoppd smoking, three years ago he chaind ducados

day

& night...i half wish i'd found th occasion to bring it up, comment,

offer positive reinforcement...

there were a few lovely days of mediterranean indian summer over th long

all-saints' day weekend...sun is peeking back out after a rainy morning

that

kept me under th covers until nearly noon, rubbing my shoulders for

warmth...

& i'm on my way to deutschland! i *need* to run, get my blood flowing out

to

my fingers & toes...feels like my lack of exercise lets my juices gather

&

pool around my belly & groin...internet access is certainly most

expensive

here- even buying a block of time, it's 800 pesetas an hour, compared to

500

in pamplona, 600 in madrid...blah blah...

found a coffee shop selling & brewing some beans from yauco- got th

roasters'

office number- familia marcilla has bn in th business for generations,

let's

see if they're amenable to sharing how th chnnels for importing 'uva

verde'

into th european community work! i've got two possible outlets for

gourmet

caribbean coffee in pamplona: el café d emiliano, who buys from a small

roaster in san sebastián, & maybe fernando anso's future cafe-bar...

hmmm, am i going into th coffee business like, for real??

stay tuned!

love, dabizzet.j=(8{>