December 31, 1998

"try being alone without being lonely...

there's nothing other then 'U' that exists, so relax

and expand into your true self~ ;)"

gratitude list: i don't need to be medicated to get thru my day...

I'm grateful for my physical health...for (this) contradictory, new,

exciting

vehicle & means of expression/production I've

found...discovered...seized...

for th diverse group of friends, acquaintances, associates (codependents?)

I've corralled into becoming something between audience & support group...

a very special public new year's thanks to my 'netfriend terri, who helps

me stay

sane in basic but ultimately mysterious ways that resist rational

explanation...

& who teaches me by her unique example to take th risk

& accept responsibility for determining what th appropiate boundaries

are between my 'public' & 'private'

selves/spheres...thankyouthankyouthankyou...

got my wolf engine running again, not yet running me down

though running me ragged up th peaks, ragged & raw down th troughs...

I come alive on a route anywhere- on my way elsewhere, legs in motion

pedal to th metal or path to be self-plodded...

(Thursday th 31, 12.1998 (10h47)

here comes nineteen-ninety-nine circling th globe, rushing @ us in

darkness-

th sun is already setting across europe on this last day of th year...

is it midnight in tokyo yet?

do they much care about it there? does th christian calendar & ordering

of time rule th planet? apart from muslims & jews...does th 'orient' share

some sort of a generalisd buddhist reckoning? excuse my ignorance...

...muchas felicidades & prospero a~o nuevo- d=(8{>